|Shoes by Kate Spade|
Does anyone else wonder this for their own lives? I do continually and sometimes I even seem to get a glimpse of that place...then I look away at something new, something shiny...something to distract me and catch the attention of my selfish desires. This was the focus of my devotional today in a series on covetousness, which is funny to those who know me well because "coveted" is a very regular word in my vocabulary to describe all kinds of things, particularly a good parking spot.
I have learned a great deal about myself with this series especially about my desire for the "right things at the wrong time." I would never consider myself covetous in the sense that I see things others have and I desire them...but I do see things that I want for the sake of want. I want it now, I want more than I might need, and want more than I need to fulfill God's plans for my life. It seems that most of those "want things" are truly just a distraction to let myself stay focused on making myself number 1. I use my wants to keep my focus off what I should focus on and that is contentment and the overwhelming blessings in my life and what I have. Focusing on wanting a new pair of cute shoes is much easier than focusing on what God has called me to do...particularly if that calling might be a wee bit uncomfortable. So, in the vain of transparency, I am here to say I struggle with covetousness but I so want to find that settled place where God is my central desire...
God granted them their request, but sent leanness into their lives.